Opening A Wound

Artist
James Bell
Released
2010
Genre
Modern
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“Tonight, I took a nagging ache / And made the ache much worse…”

History

In the early days of social media (this song was begun in 2006) I was struck, quite out of the blue, with an uncontrollable urge to find out what happened to a particular girl who I was in love with when I was a kid. Even though Facebook-stalking wasn’t really acknowledged thing at that stage, I still heard myself saying ‘no good will come of this’ again and again. You can imagine how badly it ended. Except that it didn’t: I found out that she was getting married in a few months, and suddenly I felt a deep sense of relief, as if I didn’t have to worry about this anymore. And the sheer surprise of that outcome inspired this song. Now, I’m not going to encourage you all to look up old flames on social media, but I will say that sometimes it’s a relief to know that a door that has felt like it’s frustratingly ajar is now comfortably closed.

Lyrics

Tonight
I opened up a wound
Just to watch it bleed
To see where it would lead
I double-locked the door
And curled up on the floor
At first it made me drowsy 

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Tonight
I opened the incision
Even though I knew
The damage it would do
I couldn’t help myself
It wasn’t my decision
It came from somewhere else
An itch I had to scratch
A sore I had to pick 

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Tonight
I took a nagging ache
And made the ache much worse
It wasn’t a mistake
I did the thing on purpose
My mind was somewhere else
I noticed that my fingers
Were rubbing at the skin
This strange sensation lingers
I’m starting to begin
I undo all the stitches
I sterilise a needle
And then I go to work 

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Tonight
I wagered up my soul
Surrendered my control
And yes
I don’t need to be told
Some needs are best resisted
Best left out in the cold
But this idea persisted
The adrenalin took hold
I watched it all unfold
That crimson line appears
Like ink on paper towel
Like in my teenage years
But that was to impress
And this cut is for real
We
Hadn’t seen each other in years
I’d long put it to bed
But then it just popped in my head
And I just had to know
And so 

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Tonight
I opened up the wound
I let the fluid run
Until it was all done
And now i feel much better
Now the wound can heal

Credits & Copyright

Written in February 2007 and recorded in June 2010 by James Bell. Released in November 2010. Remastered in July 2017. (C) & (P) House of Lyra.  All rights reserved.